Tuesday, February 28, 2006

Mardi Gras

So, today was/is Mardi Gras. My French teacher made a big deal about it. We made crepes in class and she gave us beads to wear. When I saw my friend I showed him and explained that this is the first time I've ever had beads to give away and yet I can't use them. Then he pointed out that they would be great for strangling one's self. He's a genius. I mean, wow. Such a simple solution to all of my problems! Later, at lunch, we were joking on the subject. We should prank call the suicide hotline. Pretend like one of us is on a chair with a rope around his neck. Then all of a sudden make noises like we did it. Drop the phone and hang up... If we ever do, I'll be sure to post it somewhere.

/me goes off to shoot things...

Do CG images feel pain?

Monday, February 27, 2006

Hook

So I was looking up this quote from Hook and i remembered this song.... It's a nice... calm... song.
/me drifts to sleep

When you're all alone
Far away from home
There's a gift the angels send
When you're alone

Everyday must end
But the night's our friend
Angels always send a star
When you're alone

At night when I'm alone
I lie awake and wonder
Which of them belongs to me
Which one I wonder?

And any star I choose
Watches over me
So I know I'm not alone
When I'm here on my own

Isn't that a wonder?
When you're alone
You're not alone
Not really alone

The stars are all my friends
Till the night time ends
So I know I'm not alone
When I'm here on my own

Isn't that a wonder?
When you're alone
You're not alone
Not really alone....

Sunday, February 26, 2006

Feeling cycle

Happiness, longing, loneliness, hope, apprehensiveness, worry, relief, happiness, longing.... The vicious cycle continues, but always, love.

P.S. I'm sure I'm missing some, so this will be edited until it's finished.

Thursday, February 23, 2006

^_^

Holy shit! Today was the best day I've had in a while. That is, barring all days I spent time with Nichole, of course. And of course, not the whole day was good. Just the latter half. Here is what happened:

Today started out normal, boring. I got to school, found nobody at the usual place I go to find my friends.Then I remembered I had to ask the librarian a question. I headed over to the library, and on the way I remembered I also had to re-check out a book that I had my friend borrow for me, except now under my name. By the time I remembered I had a question (again), the bell had rung. *sigh* Then I got really pissed at the guy who sits next to me in math. He spent his time doing nothing when he should have been doing his problems. Then when he was called to do one on the board, he asked me for mine. Grrrr. I didn't let him. So when he got up there, he told Ek'o he didn't know how to do it. Ek'o told him to call somebody else up to help him.... He called me. Double grrr. Then came brunch (Today was secondary block schedule, 2 brunch focus 4 lunch 6). It wasn't bad, I had food. And one of my friends shared his popcorn with me like I did with him yesterday. Focus wasn't too bad either, except one of my other friends (don't you hate pronouns?) kept whacking people with one of my books. By fourth period, I had given up on having today be good at all. Then at lunch, I asked the librarian, she said yes (like I knew she would), but it still made me very happy. Then in sixth period we had a sub, so we got to watch a movie. ^_^
Ahhh, yes. After school... Speaking of after school, on Tuesday I was busy getting my friend to check out that book for me (I needed it by 3:00) and missed the bus. I had thought I had missed the packages that are handed out on Tuesday, as well. But... Then they came today. I'll say what's in them (this time) like tomorrow or something. Anyway, I got a kick out of them handing some to my ex-girlfriend. She probably won't use it in a million years.... I think I'll bug her about that later. ^_^

Anyway, that was my day.

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

Friday's Schedule.

This was such a pain in the ass to get. So, to all those interested (zero people, maybe one) here is the bell schedule for Friday.

A (in class first)

B(assembly first)

All classes in 300-wing, 600, 602, 900, 901, 903, 700-wing, and Theater 70.

All classes in 500-wing, P1 – P13, 401, 402, and Gym.

Period 1

7:35 – 8:26

Period 1

7:35 – 8:26

Period 2

8:31 – 9:22

Period 2

8:31 – 9:22

Brunch

9:22 – 9:31

Brunch

9:22 – 9:31

Period 3

9:36 – 10:31

Assembly

9:36 – 10:31

Assembly

10:36 – 11:17

Period 3

10:36 – 11:17

Period 4

11:22 – 12:13

Period 4

11:22 – 12:13

Lunch

12:13 – 12:43

Lunch

12:13 – 12:43

Period 5

12:48 – 1:39

Period 5

12:48 – 1:39

Period 6

1:44 – 2:35

Period 6

1:44 – 2:35


I'm going to the assembly second, it seems. Maybe Mr. Wong will let us go to both since he has to leave to go to Thornton. Well, at least I can listen to James yell PENIS at the top of his lungs during the whole thing. :P

Monday, February 20, 2006

Ugh.

So, the last post failed. It was supposed to be a code. The spaces were zeros and the dots were ones. Then it was simple binary code to get the message. The problem is, when I put it on blogger it like added or subtracted tons of spaces. So now, when you go to translate, there are too few/many numbers and it isn't base 8.

Saturday, February 18, 2006

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Friday, February 17, 2006

Debate

So, yesterday I had an interesting dabate with one of Nicholes friends. I will post the log, but he requested that I change his SN so people don't message him.

Thu Feb 16 21:11:05 2006
[09:11 PM and 21s] majestic m00se42: Hello.
[09:11 PM and 28s] Nichole's friend: hi
[09:12 PM and 02s] Nichole's friend: +?
[09:12 PM and 30s] Nichole's friend: or not..
[09:12 PM and 30s] majestic m00se42: Did you forget who I am, again?
[09:12 PM and 44s] Nichole's friend: no. you are billiam.
[09:12 PM and 59s] majestic m00se42: ...
[09:13 PM and 05s] Nichole's friend: willy
[09:13 PM and 08s] majestic m00se42: ...
[09:13 PM and 28s] Nichole's friend: i already told nichole, i refuse to call you william
[09:13 PM and 34s] Nichole's friend: for reasons that i dont have any reason to
[09:13 PM and 42s] majestic m00se42: *sigh*
[09:13 PM and 46s] Nichole's friend: it's just one of those things
[09:14 PM and 07s] xx3nvyxx42: Here, call me envy then.
[09:14 PM and 23s] Nichole's friend: and why would i do that?
[09:14 PM and 33s] xx3nvyxx42: Because, I like that name.
[09:14 PM and 44s] Nichole's friend: ok..
[09:14 PM and 51s] Nichole's friend: so what do ya want?
[09:15 PM and 18s] xx3nvyxx42: I'ono. I haven't talked to you in a while.
[09:15 PM and 26s] Nichole's friend: ah
[09:15 PM and 42s] Nichole's friend: whats the story between you and her now?
[09:15 PM and 54s] xx3nvyxx42: Wha'd'ya' mean?
[09:16 PM and 11s] Nichole's friend: how's things with you and nichole, from your perspective?
[09:16 PM and 30s] xx3nvyxx42: Good. 'Cept we can't see eachother often.
[09:16 PM and 42s] xx3nvyxx42: *each other
[09:17 PM and 00s] Nichole's friend: ah
[09:17 PM and 19s] xx3nvyxx42: What's been up with you?
[09:17 PM and 25s] Nichole's friend: not much
[09:17 PM and 33s] Nichole's friend: just livin the college life
[09:17 PM and 53s] xx3nvyxx42: I hope at least the sky's still up.
[09:18 PM and 03s] Nichole's friend: nope
[09:18 PM and 26s] xx3nvyxx42: Oh? Too bad. When did it fall?
[09:18 PM and 52s] Nichole's friend: about eleventy: eighty four
[09:19 PM and 25s] Nichole's friend: so uhh.. why did you forgive her?
[09:19 PM and 46s] xx3nvyxx42: Because everybody makes mistakes.
[09:21 PM and 21s] xx3nvyxx42: And 'cause I love her too much not to have.
[09:21 PM and 58s] Nichole's friend: *sigh* ok
[09:22 PM and 19s] xx3nvyxx42: What? Not the answer you were looking for?
[09:22 PM and 48s] Nichole's friend: it basicly was
[09:22 PM and 57s] Nichole's friend: but it's your relationship, not mine
[09:23 PM and 27s] xx3nvyxx42: You would've broken up with her, am I right?
[09:23 PM and 54s] Nichole's friend: probably
[09:24 PM and 06s] Nichole's friend: knowing she went back to someone she *keeps* going back to...
[09:24 PM and 27s] Nichole's friend: i'd realize it's a problem that's beeing going on for like a year, and probably isn't completely solved yet
[09:24 PM and 58s] xx3nvyxx42: Yes, but I can help. I want to help.
[09:25 PM and 00s] Nichole's friend: tell her to completely break herself of her affection for him
[09:25 PM and 11s] Nichole's friend: then see what can happen from that point in time
[09:25 PM and 31s] xx3nvyxx42: That would be counter-productive.
[09:26 PM and 06s] Nichole's friend: no
[09:26 PM and 13s] Nichole's friend: that would give her incentive to fix it
[09:26 PM and 31s] Nichole's friend: what you did is basicly say "it's ok to cheat on me, i'll stick with you anyway"
[09:27 PM and 27s] xx3nvyxx42: If I told her that she would break it and I would have to break up with her.
[09:28 PM and 04s] xx3nvyxx42: I'd rather convince her that he's not that good a person and haver her break it off herself.
[09:28 PM and 11s] xx3nvyxx42: *have
[09:28 PM and 51s] Nichole's friend: wait.. that 1st part doesnt make any sense...
[09:29 PM and 40s] xx3nvyxx42: She's still friends with the guy, to tell her to break it off is like telling you never to see your best friend.
[09:30 PM and 02s] xx3nvyxx42: She would anyway and either lie about it or we'd have to break up.
[09:30 PM and 21s] Nichole's friend: "affection" as in the reason for getting sexual with him
[09:30 PM and 27s] Nichole's friend: not as in the reason for hanging out with him
[09:30 PM and 40s] Nichole's friend: affection, not friendshi
[09:30 PM and 41s] Nichole's friend: p
[09:32 PM and 30s] xx3nvyxx42: She has plenty of ability to limit her actions in that regard. She knows what it will cost the nex time.
[09:32 PM and 37s] xx3nvyxx42: *next
[09:38 PM and 28s] Nichole's friend: yea, and she's really shown that ability to limit her actions..
[09:38 PM and 53s] *** You have been disconnected. Thu Feb 16 21:38:53 2006.
[10:07 PM and 41s] *** "Nichole's friend" signed on at Thu Feb 16 22:07:41 2006.
[10:08 PM and 20s] xx3nvyxx42: Ugh, damn network. Anyway, I've found you don't get very far with people if you condemn them after just one mistake.
[10:10 PM and 12s] Nichole's friend: yea... but this isn't her first mistake
[10:10 PM and 25s] Nichole's friend: maybe the first mistake against you
[10:10 PM and 31s] Nichole's friend: but not her first mistake
[10:10 PM and 36s] xx3nvyxx42: Since we've been together it is.... I think...
[10:11 PM and 25s] Nichole's friend: so there's a cutoff to where previous mistakes just dont count?
[10:11 PM and 29s] Nichole's friend: that doesn't make much sense
[10:11 PM and 49s] xx3nvyxx42: She was "single" then. It didn't matter.
[10:12 PM and 19s] Nichole's friend: ...
[10:12 PM and 29s] Nichole's friend: what an excuse...
[10:12 PM and 54s] xx3nvyxx42: Thanks. Anyway, can we continue tomorrow? I'm supposed to go to bed.
[10:12 PM and 59s] Nichole's friend: she was single so she can do things that could be considered wrong, and unhealthy towards her mental(spiritual?) health
[10:13 PM and 02s] Nichole's friend: see ya
[10:13 PM and 53s] xx3nvyxx42: Ttyl.

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

Difficult-ness

Today will be hard. I dcided to go through all of my journals from Gaia. I wrote in it a lot in the months following my breakup with my first girlfriend. All thoes memories... Oh, I was a little insane around that time, so don't expect to understand. Heh, I don't even remember what I wrote for most of them.... Anyway, they will be pubnlished here according to the date (and maybe time) of their origional appearence on Gaia. Today will aslo be dificult because I may decide to talk to Nichole's ex-boyfriend. Ugh. I don't really want to, but Nichole thinks it's important. I guess he can't be too bad. But I only seem to hear negitive things about him. Even when Nichole tries to rationalize his actions or his personality with acts of kindness or affection, it doesn't seem to redeam him. *sigh* We shall see. I don't want him to know he's talking to me, though. As far as I hear, he's just as uninterested in talking to me as I - him. I need, then, to find some reason to be talking to him in the first place. I'll probably just randomly ask him how his day was. Then I'll see how he reacts to me not telling him my name and how I got his SN. If he is an ass, that'll be the first indication.

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

Tuesday, bloody Tuesday.

The more I see her, the more I want to see her. In this past month we have been together for less than 24 hours. Every single time we've left each other's company, I feel the time was too short. Unfortunately, I can't control how much time we get together. Especially with my dad so resolute about me not seeing her. Doesn't he realize I will do so much better in school if I'm happy? What if being with her is the best way for me to be happy? *sigh* My dad doesn't care about my happiness. He only cares about results. Burt then when I get streight A's, he will attribute it to some stupid thing he did, and not to my longing for her. I decided a while ago that I would hold the automatic A's you get from each new semester and give proof of that around my birthday. Then I can ask to start seeing her again for my birthday. Hey! Today was tuesday again. (No, really?). I wonder if these guys (and girls) have anything better to do with their time than to hand out condoms... There were all the same today. They were the bigger packs with lip balm. They kept handing them to me. By the end, I had gotten four. I decided I couldn't possibly use twelve condoms and 40ml of lube before next Tuesday, so I gave two away. One I gave to my friend who's been asking me to give him some since last week. Ant the other I gave to my Chem. lab partener as a joke. He said he'd throw it at me tomorrow. Lol.

Anyway, that was my day.

/me disappears.

Monday, February 13, 2006

One month.

Today marks one month we've been together. And... Even though my parents are pricks, I got to see her for a whole *duh da da duh* five minutes! I'm happy though. I got to see her. I delivered my fudge. (I made orange flavored fudge, btw). I met her other family members. And I told her I love her. Oh! This is... well I can't describe it...

Snail mail, e-mail, video mail, text message, IM, voip, video conferencing, phone, video phone, Rl.

Anyway, as you go further to the right, it gets harder to say things like "I love you" and therefore means more (in my opinion). And today, I finally said it in real life. Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

-eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Sunday, February 12, 2006

Ahk scripting

Instead of writing a blog last night like I usually do, I wrote an ahk script. So, since I have nothing else to post, here it is.

[autorun.inf]
[autorun]
OPEN=autorun.exe


[autorun.exe]
if A_OSVersion in WIN_NT4,WIN_95,WIN_98,WIN_ME
Run, nohotstrings.exe
Else
Run, hotstrings.exe
Exitapp


[hotstrings.exe]
#singleinstance, force
#Persistent
Progress, B zh0 fs9, Hotstrings are enabled`, use them or the control panel.

controlpanel:
Menu, tray, nostandard
Menu, tray, add, FileZilla
Menu, tray, add, Firefox
Menu, tray, add, HideWindow
Menu, tray, add, IrfanView
Menu, tray, add, OpenOffice
Menu, tray, add, Thunderbird
Menu, tray, add, Trillian
Menu, tray, add, Eject
sleep 2000
Progress, off
Return

FileZilla:
If filezilla = 1
{
process, close, %filezillapid%
filezilla = 0
Menu, tray, uncheck, FileZilla
Gosub, Disable
}
Else
{
Gosub, Disable
filezilla = 1
Menu, tray, check, FileZilla
Runwait, .\FileZilla\FileZilla.exe,,, filezillapid
filezilla = 0
Menu, tray, uncheck, FileZilla
}
Return

Firefox:
If firefox = 1
{
process, close, %firefoxpid%
firefox = 0
Menu, tray, uncheck, Firefox
Gosub, Disable
}
Else
{
Gosub, Disable
firefox = 1
Menu, tray, check, Firefox
Runwait, .\PortableFirefox\PortableFirefox.exe,,, firefoxpid
firefox = 0
Menu, tray, uncheck, Firefox
}
Return

HideWindow:
If hidewindow = 1
{
process, close, %hidewindowpid%
hidewindow = 0
Menu, tray, uncheck, HideWindow
Gosub, Disable
}
Else
{
Gosub, Disable
hidewindow = 1
Menu, tray, check, HideWindow
Runwait, .\HideWindow.exe,,, hidewindowpid
hidewindow = 0
Menu, tray, uncheck, HideWindow
}
Return

IrfanView:
If irfanview = 1
{
process, close, %irfanviewpid%
irfanview = 0
Menu, tray, uncheck, IrfanView
Gosub, Disable
}
Else
{
Gosub, Disable
irfanview = 1
Menu, tray, check, IrfanView
Runwait, .\iview398\i_view32.exe,,, irfanviewpid
irfanview = 0
Menu, tray, uncheck, IrfanView
}
Return

OpenOffice:
If openoffice = 1
{
process, close, %openofficepid%
openoffice = 0
Menu, tray, uncheck, OpenOffice
Gosub, Disable
}
Else
{
Gosub, Disable
openoffice = 1
Menu, tray, check, OpenOffice
Runwait, .\PortableOpenOffice\PortableOpenOffice.exe,,, openofficepid
openoffice = 0
Menu, tray, uncheck, OpenOffice
}
Return

Thunderbird:
If thunderbird = 1
{
process, close, %thunderbirdpid%
thunderbird = 0
Menu, tray, uncheck, Thunderbird
Gosub, Disable
}
Else
{
Gosub, Disable
thunderbird = 1
Menu, tray, check, Thunderbird
Runwait, .\PortableThunderbird\PortableThunderbird.exe,,, thunderbirdpid
thunderbird = 0
Menu, tray, uncheck, Thunderbird
}
Return

Trillian:
If trillian = 1
{
process, close, %trillianpid%
trillian = 0
Menu, tray, uncheck, Trillian
Gosub, Disable
}
Else
{
Gosub, Disable
trillian = 1
Menu, tray, check, Trillian
Runwait, .\Trill\trillian.exe,,, trillianpid
trillian = 0
Menu, tray, uncheck, Trillian
}
Return

Eject:
If filezilla = 1
{
process, close, %filezillapid%
filezilla = 0
Menu, tray, uncheck, FileZilla
}
If firefox = 1
{
process, close, %firefoxpid%
firefox = 0
Menu, tray, uncheck, Firefox
}
If hidewindow = 1
{
process, close, %hidewindowpid%
hidewindow = 0
Menu, tray, uncheck, HideWindow
}
If irfanview = 1
{
process, close, %irfanviewpid%
irfanview = 0
Menu, tray, uncheck, IrfanView
}
If openoffice = 1
{
process, close, %openofficepid%
openoffice = 0
Menu, tray, uncheck, OpenOffice
}
If thunderbird = 1
{
process, close, %thunderbirdpid%
thunderbird = 0
Menu, tray, uncheck, Thunderbird
}
If trillian = 1
{
process, close, %trillianpid%
trillian = 0
Menu, tray, uncheck, Trillian
}
Exitapp
Return

Disable:
If filezilla = 1
menu, tray, disable, FileZilla
Else
menu, tray, enable, FileZilla
If firefox = 1
menu, tray, disable, Firefox
Else
menu, tray, enable, Firefox
If hidewindow = 1
menu, tray, disable, HideWindow
Else
menu, tray, enable, HideWindow
If irfanview = 1
menu, tray, disable, IrfanView
Else
menu, tray, enable, IrfanView
If openoffice = 1
menu, tray, disable, OpenOffice
Else
menu, tray, enable, OpenOffice
If thunderbird = 1
menu, tray, disable, Thunderbird
Else
menu, tray, enable, Thunderbird
If trillian = 1
menu, tray, disable, Trillian
Else
menu, tray, enable, Trillian
Return

hotstrings:

::runfilezilla::
Gosub, FileZilla
Return

::runfirefox::
Gosub, Firefox
Return

::runhidewindow::
Gosub, HideWindow
Return

::runirfanview::
Gosub, IrfanView
Return

::runopenoffice::
Gosub, OpenOffice
Return

::runthunderbird::
Gosub, Thunderbird
Return

::runtrillian::
Gosub, Trillian
Return


[nohotstrings.exe]
(Same as above except nothing below the hotstrings label.)

Saturday, February 11, 2006

Mirror writing.

Goddamn I love her... Heh, if anybody is actually reading this crap, they're probably tired of hearing me say things like that. :P Oh, well. I guess it wouldn't kill me to talk about something else. Hmmm, what to say; what to s... I know! Mirror writing! For a while now I've been practicing mirror writing. I just randomly remembered learning about it in elementary school. Da Vinci wrote in mirror writing all the time, except when writing things other people were supposed to read, of course. So, In true Da Vinci style, I am practicing with my left (Da Vinci was left handed). It used to hurt after only a short while, but my arm has gotten stronger. I can now write a half page without stoping. :) But I still can write longer and faster with my right hand un-mirrored. Hey, I should post a scan of my mirror writing. Maybe somebody can tell me how easy it is to read. Hopefully it's not too easy. I can't tell anymore. I've been writing mirrored for so long, I can read mirrored with no trouble. *sigh* Maybe if I had a scanner...

Friday, February 10, 2006

Choices

Yay! My little Cryadis has made her choice. The only problem now is that she has to make that same choice every day. I don't think there will be any any problem with that, though. She does love me. If she does make the wrong choice though..... I can't do a "slap on the wrist" punnishment again. It won't work twice. If there is another time, I will have to seriously concider breaking up with her. I don't want to do it, but if I have to...


Hey... Does anybody actually read this crap? If you do, you have way too much time on your hands. Just fyi.

Thursday, February 09, 2006

Random.

When I was younger, every day was another chance to grow, to change for the better. The older I get, however, the more I realize that I am dying. Slowly. From the inside out. It will be a good death, after the eighty years it will take to finish. Hey. I forgot. I'm going to the sixth level of hell. My mom is as well. My dad is going to the second level allong with Nichole. Ah, Nichole. Does she know her task? Has she made the choice? Maybe I can help her allong, just a little. :P

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Sixth Level of Hell - The City of Dis!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
LevelScore
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)Low
Level 2 (Lustful)High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)Moderate
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)Very High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)Extreme
Level 7 (Violent)Very High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)Very High

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

But I still love her.

I should have seen this comming. I think I did see this comming. I guess I'm more surprised it didn't happen sooner.

She says she feels bad. She says she knows she did wrong. She says she's sorry.


This is not my choice to make.
I can not, will not, make it for her.
I hope she makes the right choice.
I hope it doesn't hurt so bad if she doesn't.

My last words to her today:
I love you, still.

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

Free condoms. :P

Ahhhh, Tuesday. The day that is slowly filling up my supply of condoms.
To those who don't already know, people from the teen center stop by every Tuesday, handing out condoms. You can refuse, but it's easier just to shove the damn things into your pocket. Today is the first time I actually got one though. The first time, I refused. And the second time they got there after I had already gotten on the bus.

So, the contents of the packages:

The larger one, handed out by the girl:
A pen.
Two Durex condoms.
An instruction manual for the condoms.
A 10 ml bottle of lube.
A postcard with the address of the teen center on it.
A business card with the address of the teen center on it and the words "Return this card for your free gift"
A red condom in a box with a poem on the back that reads:

To give roses today would be corney;
they cost, they die and they're
thorney. So please don't be miffed,
a red condom's your gift,
'tis practical too 'cause
I'm horney

The smaller one, handed out by the guy:
Two Durex condoms.
A 10 ml bottle of lube.
And the same business card as above.

There was another one, I think, that had lip balm instead of a pen.

Anyway, that's all for today.

Saturday, February 04, 2006

Hope

I need to see her... Even if only for a second.
How can I go 66 miles without my parents knowing?

Details:
School ends: 2:35
Parents get off work: 4:30 (30 min away) and 6:30 (45 min away)
Transportation limitations: Heavy backpack, no car, bad at long distance running
Other problems: Parents call every so often to check up on us.

Ideas:
How much do taxis cost?
Are there any busses that go from here to there?
Any other forms of public transportation?

Friday, February 03, 2006

Lonely

For the first time since we started going out, I feel alone. Even when I ran out of money on my phone, I could set a date in my mind upon which I would be able to converse with her again. Now, I have nothing. Maybe I should write her a letter. Snail mail is rather... well.... Snail-like, but I can relive my urge to talk to her without the use of a computer or phone.
Maybe...



I miss her so much.
I love her so much.
I just hope it's enough.

Thursday, February 02, 2006

Love

How fast does love fade?
How strong does it have to be to survive months apart?
If it does survive, will it be the same?

How long until I loose hope?
How long until she looses interest?

How much does she love me?
How far will she go?

Twenty-four hours have now passed...
Does she still love me? Does she still care?

Has she tried to reach me?
My phone is broken, I don't know.

I don't know.

I don't know.

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

Towels.

I am weird. I carry a towel arround school. Most people don't understand why I do it and try to ask me.... The explination is a fricken page long! Do they really expect me to start making a whole speach on why I carry a towel to every random idiot who can't read a book to save his/her life? If they really want to know they can read the book (The Hitchhicker's Guide to the Galaxy by Douglas Adams) or read the quote soon to follow.

The Hitch Hiker's Guide to the Galaxy has a few things to say on the subject of towels.

A towel, it says, is about the most massively useful thing an interstellar hitch hiker can have. Partly it has great practical value — you can wrap it around you for warmth as you bound across the cold moons of Jaglan Beta; you can lie on it on the brilliant marble-sanded beaches of Santraginus V, inhaling the heady sea vapours; you can sleep under it beneath the stars which shine so redly on the desert world of Kakrafoon; use it to sail a mini raft down the slow heavy river Moth; wet it for use in hand-to-hand-combat; wrap it round your head to ward off noxious fumes or to avoid the gaze of the Ravenous Bugblatter Beast of Traal (a mindboggingly stupid animal, it assumes that if you can't see it, it can't see you — daft as a bush, but very ravenous); you can wave your towel in emergencies as a distress signal, and of course dry yourself off with it if it still seems to be clean enough.

More importantly, a towel has immense psychological value. For some reason, if a strag (strag: non-hitch hiker) discovers that a hitch hiker has his towel with him, he will automatically assume that he is also in possession of a toothbrush, face flannel, soap, tin of biscuits, flask, compass, map, ball of string, gnat spray, wet weather gear, space suit etc., etc. Furthermore, the strag will then happily lend the hitch hiker any of these or a dozen other items that the hitch hiker might accidentally have "lost". What the strag will think is that any man who can hitch the length and breadth of the galaxy, rough it, slum it, struggle against terrible odds, win through, and still knows where his towel is is clearly a man to be reckoned with.

Hence a phrase which has passed into hitch hiking slang, as in "Hey, you sass that hoopy Ford Prefect? There's a frood who really knows where his towel is." (Sass: know, be aware of, meet, have sex with; hoopy: really together guy; frood: really amazingly together guy.)