Day Two
What am I to do? Every second brings us closer to breaking up. I've begun to accept that it's inevitable. I have been asking around... What the hell am I going to do with my life without her? Both of the people I asked had no suggestions. They know that they can't replace her. They know that they aren't good for the kind of emotional support I get from her. What am I supposed to do? ...
I can't think of anything. Everything I come up with is just a temporary fix. Nothing will last long enough. My pain will just build up until I turn into one of those emo-relationship-hating-bitches. And it would be so easy too. This is only the second break-up I've gone through, and I'm already debating the idea of starting relationships in the first place...
Nichole wonders if we'll still be friends. Heh, yah right. Most people seem to agree, we're just to damn far apart to stay friends. The gas prices will continue to go up and the reasons for coming will be few and far between. Visiting will cease before too long. Then talking will go. Who talks with someone they never see? She will go the way of many a friend of mine. Thankfully I can count them all on one hand. All of them left in some way shape or form. All of them stopped talking to me... And then what? Not talking, not visiting, That can't be called friend by any stretch of the imagination. Maybe acquaintance but even that's sketchy. Heh. The word is ex-couple (ex-boyfriend/ex-girlfriend).
It's amazing how fast too.. In a few days this will be all over. Nichole will try to initialize some masterful plan. That may keep us friends until the proms. Isn't it great, we'll have a chance to waste a lot of money hurting each other all over again! And that's as far as it will go. Maybe a few random visits after, but nothing special. Then, probably over the summer, the communication will stop. Probably slow to a crawl first.
For probably the last time I say this: Why can't it just be enough that I love her?
I can't think of anything. Everything I come up with is just a temporary fix. Nothing will last long enough. My pain will just build up until I turn into one of those emo-relationship-hating-bitches. And it would be so easy too. This is only the second break-up I've gone through, and I'm already debating the idea of starting relationships in the first place...
Nichole wonders if we'll still be friends. Heh, yah right. Most people seem to agree, we're just to damn far apart to stay friends. The gas prices will continue to go up and the reasons for coming will be few and far between. Visiting will cease before too long. Then talking will go. Who talks with someone they never see? She will go the way of many a friend of mine. Thankfully I can count them all on one hand. All of them left in some way shape or form. All of them stopped talking to me... And then what? Not talking, not visiting, That can't be called friend by any stretch of the imagination. Maybe acquaintance but even that's sketchy. Heh. The word is ex-couple (ex-boyfriend/ex-girlfriend).
It's amazing how fast too.. In a few days this will be all over. Nichole will try to initialize some masterful plan. That may keep us friends until the proms. Isn't it great, we'll have a chance to waste a lot of money hurting each other all over again! And that's as far as it will go. Maybe a few random visits after, but nothing special. Then, probably over the summer, the communication will stop. Probably slow to a crawl first.
For probably the last time I say this: Why can't it just be enough that I love her?