Difficult-ness

Today will be hard. I dcided to go through all of my journals from Gaia. I wrote in it a lot in the months following my breakup with my first girlfriend. All thoes memories... Oh, I was a little insane around that time, so don't expect to understand. Heh, I don't even remember what I wrote for most of them.... Anyway, they will be pubnlished here according to the date (and maybe time) of their origional appearence on Gaia. Today will aslo be dificult because I may decide to talk to Nichole's ex-boyfriend. Ugh. I don't really want to, but Nichole thinks it's important. I guess he can't be too bad. But I only seem to hear negitive things about him. Even when Nichole tries to rationalize his actions or his personality with acts of kindness or affection, it doesn't seem to redeam him. *sigh* We shall see. I don't want him to know he's talking to me, though. As far as I hear, he's just as uninterested in talking to me as I - him. I need, then, to find some reason to be talking to him in the first place. I'll probably just randomly ask him how his day was. Then I'll see how he reacts to me not telling him my name and how I got his SN. If he is an ass, that'll be the first indication.