Monday, October 29, 2007

Sleep Deprived

So... I haven't written in a while. And the last few posts were from my phone. I meant to come back and expand on them, but I never go around to it... Sigh. I haven't really been in the mood for writing. It's too much like work which I've been doing too much of recently.
I need a break... College life is so stressful. I'm trying very hard to remain the same as I've always been, but it's hard. I find myself getting upset at random things and I keep it to myself. I'm too nice a person to take it out on someone else.
Too nice. I often wonder if there is such a thing. Especially recently. I'm beginning to think that's all I have going for me. I suck harshly at everything else. Can't save my money for shit. Can't get a job. Can't not procrastinate. Can't be interesting. Can't get Linux to work like I want it to. can't stay up late to save my life (unless I'm going all night, of course). Can't comfort my girlfriend. Can't be in three places at once. Can't even breathe without screwing up somehow.
I feel.. like Microsoft. Stretched so thin everything I do is crap. I need some time wher I can just focus on one thing. Where I don't have to worry anymore about all the other shit, because there is only one thing on my mind. Sigh. Where the hell could I find the motivation for that one?