Life Goes On

So she has a new boyfriend. I don't quite know all the details. I think I know the name, but I probably can't spell it. I know it happened either last night or this morning. I know... shit, I really don't know much at all. I know I've felt like crying all day. Still haven't. Breathe deep. Close eyes tightly. Lather. Rinse. Repeat. I shouldn't say things like that anymore. And that will be the last time I post my feelings on the matter online. I can't talk about someone else's girlfriend that way. I want very much for her to be happy and I think she can with him. But not if I make it more difficult.
So.. spring break is almost over for me. It's just starting for Nichole. It wasn't nearly long enough. I need a break. A long break. Like summer, but I won't have that as a break. Stupid summerschool. Stupid me. All the choices I've made, many of them wrong, have brought me right here. And I don't like where I am. I doubt I will ever be happy about the choices I've made. But that's life. You make choices and you live with the consequences. It's too bad I realized that too late.
P.S. For future reference, like the next time I'm in this mood, 10 Things I Hate About You is not the best movie to watch. :-\
P.P.S. On second thought, movies in general are bad...